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Thursday 17 November 2011

First Trimester Update: Avoiding Accidental Polygamy & Polygamists

This pregnancy is flying by!  I am just emerging from the first trimester hell!  I say it has flown by now, but weeks 5-9 were not particularly fun :s

Actually...none of it has been great, but that's because I've been sick for almost all of it :(  And not the morning sickness kind: I've had either one endless cold, or one after another, I'm not sure.  I mistakenly thought that your immune system is elevated when pregnant, but boy, was I wrong.  Your immunity is actually compromised when pregnant.  I get everything!  Doesn't help that this is my son's first year of daycare, so he gets everything, too, and brings it home to me.  When he's sick, he's extra snuggly, and who can resist that? But the other day, when I had to leave work to get him from daycare because he had a fever of 103.7, and took him into bed with me to rest (after a visit to the walk-in clinic), I was painfully aware of the fact that he was breathing his snotty, raspy, congested, sick air directly into my mouth and nose :s  But what can you do?  They're so sweet and pathetic when sick, you can't help but let them infect you!

Aside from continual respiratory illnesses, however, I've been pretty good.  I did have some morning sickness which started earlier than with my last pregnancy (at about 5 1/2 weeks), was more intense, and longer-lasting than with Avery (with him, I only felt nauseous for about an hour a day for a week; this time around, it lasted until week 9, and started around 11am, continuing the rest of the day).  Still, I didn't actually throw up, so I know I got off easy compared to some people.  But it still sucked.  I just felt gross, all the time.  Nothing was appealing to me to eat, every meal was a forced effort, though I did find I felt better after I had managed a few bites.  Grocery shopping was particularly painful - that's the only time I think I probably could have thrown up: I had to leave the store and wait outside, spitting into a water bottle :s  I know: I'm so glamourous and sexy.

Then there's the fatigue.  That's what I remember as the worst part from my first pregnancy.  And it was bad this time, too - still is - though not as bad as the first time around.  The first time, I remember trying to take naps at work, laying my head down on my desk, then going home and having a real nap for an hour or so, and still needing to go to bed early.  The past few weeks, I've taken a nap here and there, when I can, and I'm definitely tired by around 8pm...but I don't think it's as bad as the first time, and I think I'm getting my energy back now, at the end of the first trimester.  I've also been taking some sort of vitamin B combo that's supposed to help, but makes the nausea worse - catch 22.

The first time I was pregnant, I didn't really show until around 4 months.  I started to feel fatter before that, but was still able to wear my regular pants, just with an elastic band slipped through the button hole and used to give me an extra inch or so.  But this time, I had a definite baby bulge as early as 5 weeks!  They say your muscles remember...I say mine remembered and just gave up!  I was afraid I was going to "pull a Falco" (a friend of mine, who is notoriously huge during pregnancy, but is really a very petite person!) and be the size of a Buick this time!  But my belly has seemed to stay the same size since that 5-week expansion, thank God.

I was very relieved to find out I am carrying just one baby.  I had been nervous about twins, for several reasons.  The first is that my psychic predicted twins.  I know, I know - I'm not crazy!  I wouldn't have given this prediction any weight EXCEPT for the fact that 4 of his other predictions HAD been accurate, including the one about me conceiving right away, which was surprising because I had needed medical intervention to help me conceive my first time.  Couple that with the enormity of my belly (okay, slight exaggeration, but it was surprisingly large for that early), and I started to give it real consideration.  There are also 5 sets of twins in my family, just none that recent.  Finally, at my first midwife appointment, she was even surprised at the size of my uterus, and even moreso when she was able to detect a heartbeat with a Doppler that early (8 weeks)!  She suspected I was carrying twins, too, and started listing off all the complications associated with multiple pregnancies, and why I'd have to go into shared care with a physician, and the greater likelihood of needing a c-section...!  It was very overwhelming and scary!  So, I had to go for an ultrasound to find out.  Twins would have been fine...we would have managed...but we were not unhappy to discover just one, nice, strong, healthy fetus in there :)  Man, I give credit to mommis of twins!  I'm sure there are big rewards, and they're very cute, and the matching thing is somewhat appealing...but the sleeplessness times 2 part is not, nor is the need for 2 of everything!  Anyhow: 1 baby for me - phew! :D

My skin has not been as atrocious this pregnancy, either.  Though, I was prepared this time, and have been using Clindets wipes, which my dermatologist told me too late last pregnancy, are safe to use during.  Also, I have not detected any worsening of the remnants of my old mask of pregnancy - but I know I have a long way to go, and didn't really notice anything until the last couple months of pregnancy last time, either :s  No linea nigra yet, either! :)  Fingers crossed for me that I won't get either this time!

That's it for symptoms and developments so far...  We got to hear the heartbeat again at our 12 week appointment, and that's always pretty cool and moving :)  Justin got to come with me this time, so it was his first time hearing.  Ugh, though: at that appointment, I had to have more blood taken because I guess the bloodwork my doctor had already sent me for failed to identify my blood type - and my veins were being evasive that day, resulting in several failed attempts to get my blood, including one in my HAND :s  And I had to have a Pap - never fun.  This one was particularly traumatic because the midwife got me to hold all the instruments she was going to be using, and pass them to her as needed.  Some things I just don't want to know about!  Just let me stare at the ceiling and pretend I'm somewhere else, please.

Speaking of midwives, I want to take this opportunity to pimp them out again.  Many people don't know that Midwifery care is covered by OHIP in Ontario.  Or that they send you for all the same tests and ultrasounds as a doctor does.  Or that they actually have MORE dedicated education in all things "baby" than doctors.  Or that having a midwife doesn't mean you have to have a home birth (though you can).  Or that they're not all crazy, woodsy, hippie-types.  I will grant you, that was one of my concerns, as well.  There is the assumption that midwives look a lot like the polygamists on Big Love - and this isn't always false.  But if you look hard enough, you will find that many are not, in fact, polygamists, nor do they look like them or share the same beliefs :P  That was my criteria for selecting a midwife this time.  I had to find another, because I have moved and can't be cared for by my last one, who is now out of area.  Two friends recommended theirs, and I went online to see who looked least like Nicki from Big Love (Barb or Marge might be okay), and both clinics had photos of their caregivers, many of whom I was sure were not polygamists.  Ultimately, however, I chose a midwife at another clinic, nearer to my home and work, purely for convenience.  This is not a diatribe on polygamy; in fact, I don't really have anything against polygamists...okay, wait...maybe I do...I don't know...but that is not my point.  My point is that it's important to choose a caregiver for your pregnancy that you feel comfortable with and can establish a rapport with.  Personally, I relate better to people who don't live on compounds and share spouses.  But that's just me.  I hope my readers can appreciate this attempt at humour, and aren't totally offended right now ;)  In defense of polygamists everywhere, I should add that I was briefly a polygamist, myself - accidentally!  Justin and I recently bought a new home, and when we were doing the paperwork for the mortgage with the legal assistant, we declared ourselves common-law spouses.  But the next question was about my last name, which I'm only in the process of changing back to my maiden name.  It came out that I am technically, legally still married.  Which briefly made me a polygamist, right?  But the problem was quickly corrected when we decided to list ourselves as 2 single individuals purchasing a home together instead.  And I really hope my divorce gets finalized soon.  As in, before this baby's born.  For obvious, and slightly sketchy reasons.  But anyway.  If you'd like more legitimate information on why I recommend midwives, please see my earlier post: Fisting, Midwives, and Indian Rug Burn :)

So, what do you think?  Do you think the differences in pregnancy symptoms between this pregnancy and my first suggest that I might be carrying a girl this time?  I have no idea.  And no preference.  Honestly.  I think a lot of people assume that girls want girls.  But that is not always the case.  I love my boy!  One of each would be nice, but if I could only have one gender, I think I'd rather have all boys than all girls.  The previously mentioned pregnant friend who is expecting her THIRD girl, however, thinks I'm crazy ;)

Guesses or predictions?  I wish SOMEone could tell me what I'm having!  I don't care which, but definitely want to know!  We're scheduled for the ultrasound that will potentially reveal the gender (if baby cooperates) just before Christmas :)

Friday 11 November 2011

Where the Pee Pee Goes

This post is actually the result of a request!  My very first request!  Of course, said request was made via facebook, and not a comment on the blog...why do so few people comment ON the blog??  I get lots of feedback via private message and facebook, but can't seem to crack you guys into commenting HERE...  Such a mystery!  But anyway, I am happy for feedback through any medium, and was excited about this request.  A friend said she was waiting for a post on potty training, as she was stumped on the issue with her own son, of a similar age.

Well...I am certainly no authority on the subject - but then again, I'm no authority on any of the subjects I write about here, so no matter ;)  When people ask me if my son is potty trained, I give them a percentage:  he's about 80% potty trained.  We are potty trainING.

Here is what little advice I can offer:

My son is almost always naked.  We started "Naked Time" when he was about a year, because that's when he got the uric acid burns from SOMEONE leaving him in a wet diaper for far too long.  I treated his sore bum with warm baking soda baths, followed by lots of air time, so that the area was clean and dry before another diaper went on.  I think that leaving him naked so much of the time taught him a bit of control.  He rarely peed on the floor - and even less frequently POOed on the floor!  He knows that peepee does not go on the floor.

After he'd been naked for a while, I'd know he hadn't peed for at least that long, either, so I started strategically putting him on his potty (we chose a small, white and green, potty slash stepstool model to start with) when I knew there was the best chance he'd have to go.  This went on for months, with no success.  But I figured, just getting him to feel comfortable on the potty was a step in the right direction, so we read books and ate Cheerios while sitting there.

I planned to not make a big deal if he didn't go, but throw a big celebration if ever he did.  And it finally happened!  After months of trying, he finally let a few drops of pee out into the potty while my mom was watching him!  She held the celebration, and saved the pee in said potty for me to gush over later (no pun intended).  I was sure that once he had gone the first time, it would come easier after that.

Nope!  Several more months when by without a repeat performance.  But finally, it happened again.  I had been spending 20 minutes at a time, entertaining him while he sat on the potty, waiting for pee, and what I learned was that it's more about timing than the amount of time spent on the potty.  If he doesn't go right away, it's not going to happen.  If he has to go, he'll pee as soon as he sits down.  This revelation saved us lots of time and frustration.

And after that, he did start peeing almost every time I put him on the potty.  I was giving him a chocolate rosebud as a reward each time this happened, but this led to others issues :s  He started wanting to "try" to pee all the time, but it was only to get the treat.  If I denied him said treat, a big rage attack would ensue (this was also right around the time his classic Terrible Two tantrums began anyway), and I started to wonder if the caffeine from the chocolate was causing them.  It probably wasn't, but I'm like that, so I switched to organic yogourt-covered raisins instead :)  Problem solved!  Coincidence?  I don't know.

As a next step, we have dabbled a bit with going without a diaper, and I just ask the little guy if he needs to go peepee on the potty every 10 minutes or so, and remind him: "Remember you have no diapey on, so you have to tell Mommi when you have to pee".  For the most part, it has been successful, and when diaperless, he will even tell me when he has to pee, and then off we go to the potty :D

But we are also stumped on two points.

The first is just consistency.  I am not home with him every hour of every day, and at daycare, he wears a diaper.  They put him on the potty every 2 hours when they change his diaper, but if he doesn't go in the 30 seconds they allot, then he doesn't go at all.  So far, he has gone peepee on the potty at daycare exactly twice in 4 months.  There is a lack of consistency when he goes to his dad's, as well.  Last time I asked Daddi, he told me he has not used the potty at his house.  I asked if he even tried, and that ended any sort of honest communication we may have been capable of :s  So now, I don't ask, and consequently, don't know if he's bothering to try to get our son to use the potty there or not.  This is obviously problematic, but if we had been able to respectfully communicate and see eye to eye on what's best for our son in the first place, we might still be married!

So, I've been waiting for the "right time" to provide the little guy with some of the missing diaperless consistency, and I think I'll get my chance over Christmas holidays.  I'll be home with Avery for almost 2 weeks straight, and plan to just not put a diaper on him, and ask him constantly if he needs to go peepee for the duration of those 2 weeks.  With 2 exceptions, but I'll get there in a minute.  After Christmas break, I'll start sending him to daycare with only one diaper for naptime, and about 6 changes of clothes in case of accidents :)

The other point I'm stumped on is my son's absolute refusal to poopoo on the potty.  Or at daycare.  He just won't do it; he holds it in!  He will say, "Uh oh!  Poopoo!  Diapey on, Mama!"  And I ask him why don't we try to do a poopoo on the potty, but he either says no, or we try, but nothing happens.  He tries!  He knows how to "push" and will TOOT on the potty...but no poopoo.  If not given a diapered opportunity to poop, he will hold it in for days at a time, and I know that can't be good.  My ex-nephew got a distended bowel from holding in his poop!

Oddly, he has no aversion to pooping in many public places.  There is a clothing store by our cottage that we would visit every day, every time without fail, Avery would hide behind a rack of clothing and tell us he was "not poopin'".  That's how we know he is, in fact, pooping.  Once we stopped at a convenience store on a road trip, and he held an entire aisle hostage, yelling "NOT POOPIN"" if anyone tried to go down that aisle.  He likes to poop in closets, and once used the one in a model home, announcing to me, but also to another family going through, "Avewy (he struggles with Rs) do a big MAN poopoo, Mama!"  We often find him behind the couch or behind the curtains in the living room, "not poopin'".  And if the ideal spot doesn't pressent itself, he's not opposed to simply stopping in the middle of a public place, covering his face, and going to town - not poopin', of course.  As parents, we are supposed to teach our children, but there are a number of behaviours we pick up from them, as well, and Justin now frequently tells me when he is not farting... :s

But getting back on track, my revised plan is to has him go diaperless all day, but give him an opportunity to poop in a diaper after dinner, before bedtime.  The other exception is nighttime.  I will still put him in a diaper at bedtime - mostly because I am such a sleep Nazi, I don't want to start getting up in the night for potty trips!  Selfish, I know, but furthermore, my son does not yet wake up when he has to pee, nor does he stay dry all night, so I kind of think it might be too soon to try nighttime potty training anyway.

I'm not really sure how I'll get him to start going poopoo in the potty :s  But I sort of feel like, just like the peepeeing, it will just happen one day.  He's only 2 years and 5 months, and I'm told boys often take longer to become fully potty trained...sigh.  ;)

What do you other Mommis think?  I'd love any advice you might be able to offer, as well as to hear your own potty training tales!

Tuesday 8 November 2011

Soon to be Mommi of 2 - Not Accidentally!

Well, I was 12 weeks yesterday, and have already gone public in other areas of my life, so I figured it's about time I share the news with my fabulous followers...I'm expecting a second child in May! :D

I still have a number of posts I want to share with regard to my first baby experience (ongoing), but felt there's no netter time to document the reality of pregnancy than while it's happening!  I expect this to be a very different experience, simply because I have a very supportive partner in this with me this time, and also because I'm not totally new to the game ;)  So, here's what's happening..!

Justin and I decided we wanted to expand our family in August.  We had talked about it for a while, and decided that other aspects in our life were finally falling into place, making it "the right time".  Ideally, I would have liked a September-November or February-March baby - but the latter would just have required waiting too long!  So, I was hoping for a Decemberish conception.  Given that conceiving my first child took some time, and the assistance of Clomid, we decided I would go off The Pill right away, and we'd just "see how things went" for a while, getting more serious (medical intervention) in the late Fall.  I took my last Pill on August 12th, started my period on August 15th (sorry, guys, but this is pertinent info), and expected my next on to start September 12th or thereabouts (given that I generally have a much longer and somewhat unpredictable cycle when it's not being regulated by The Pill).

A friend had given me a book called Take Charge of Your Fertility, and I had every intention of reading it...really, I did...but said friend is really very knowledgeable, and gave me a Coles Notes version of how to read my vaginal mucous :S  I looked at it (the mucous).  Whenever it made an appearance.  But I can't say I was serious enough at that point to actually go in after it or make recordings or anything.  Still, apparently, I was looking for "egg whites", and I was pretty sure I got some!  So, we DID IT.  A lot.  Well, not too much (didn't want to use it all up at once, know what I mean?) - but once a day, everyday - even when we didn't particularly want to, for a 2-week range when I thought I might be ovulating, coincidentally, over Labour Day weekend at the cottage ;)  Oh, and I inverted and elevated my abdomen with a pillow and my feet propped up on the headboard for a few minutes after each time, just to be safe!  I had read (and been made fun of by friends) that that actually has no benefit, but who cares?  I did it the first time, and it worked...

On September 10th - 2 days before my expected period, I couldn't bear the suspense and decided to take a pregnancy test early.  IT WAS POSITIVE! :D  Just like that!  I had taken the test at night, but it was a 2-pack, so I took the second test with "fresh morning urine" (Man, the business of baby-making is just rife with grossness, isn't it?), and it was also positive :D  I told Justin and we were both thrilled.  I was teary.  There was hugging.  And then I sent out a photo of my positive test to a few select friends :)  We agreed not to go public with the news for some time, but come on...a girl has to tell a few.

What a difference from my first conception experience!  I guess it's true that, after childbirth, everything about you changes - your hormones get completely reset.

And so, the adventure continues.  I plan to share all the lurid details of this pregnancy, but as is common in the first trimester, I'm really quite tired, so that's all I can manage for now ;)  Oh, I lied - of course I have the energy to include a scan of our first ultrasound (9 weeks, 5 days)... <3


Any mommis care to share second (or more) pregnancy tales?  Was it completely different than your first experience?  In what ways?  What do you think is the "ideal" gap in age between children (or do you think one is enough?)?  What's your idea of the perfect birth-month?